once upon a time

2012-01-20T08:42:00.000-08:00

I have too much emotions. So much so that i don't know how to move on from them,how to let them go without trying,and how to overcome them. Emotions to me is like this heavy burden i carry,and i really do not know how to put them down.i wish i could.

i very much rather to be without feelings and emotions. It would be alot better without them. My mind would then be able to function at the optimum.

2012-01-05T04:10:00.000-08:00

you won't be able to find me.. Not till i'm fine.

2011-12-30T08:29:00.000-08:00

my laptop needs some...healing.

2011-12-23T08:35:00.000-08:00

In that way, the promise was broken...

2011-12-01T05:30:00.000-08:00

“ 爱情跟梦想都是很奇妙的事情
不用听不用说也不用被翻译
就能感受到它 ”
-听说 (hear me)

2011-11-28T07:24:00.000-08:00

Did you not realise?
It had been you all along.

2011-11-27T07:54:00.000-08:00

"It wasn't her throat, and it wasn't a fever, but it hurt all the same to be heartbroken."

2011-11-21T07:05:00.000-08:00

As an ingenuous kid, i used to think that true love, or so i called it, could overcome anything at all. I thought, as long as both parties loved each other, nothing could ever stop them from being toether.How gullible i was to have had that kind of mindset.
Two people in love can't be together if their planned future differ.
That's how i see it now.

2011-11-09T21:48:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=youtube_gdata_player&v=CA1P_gVm0bc

2011-11-08T20:39:00.000-08:00

有受骗的感觉

2011-11-08T02:47:00.001-08:00

Miss you...

2011-11-08T02:40:00.000-08:00

When it has already reached such a state, it's time to leave,time to let go,time to go our seperate ways. Because isn't there nothing to salvage,but everything for us to move on and forget? That is what it seems like to me at this point in time. If an apology is required, i'm sorry.

2011-11-07T05:12:00.000-08:00

"I felt the Lord tell me not to rush into a relationship but to let Him satisfy me first. This is because when you are satisfied and fulfilled, when you are filled to the brim and it overflows, then you have the ability to love someone. We cannot give until we have been given to"

2011-11-03T22:41:00.000-07:00

如果你快乐不是为我，会不会放手其实才是拥有

2011-11-02T21:26:00.000-07:00

I've decided against the idea of writing a letter to you. Or should i?

2011-10-25T20:30:00.000-07:00

Dear God,please let venice come out for ss seq..

2011-10-24T06:11:00.000-07:00

"everything you'll ever need in this life as a believer is all inside you"

2010-11-22T17:06:00.000-08:00

hello :D
hahaha.
im changin to tumblr :)
click here :)

2010-11-22T01:07:00.000-08:00

doesn't matter luh hor..
lol.

2010-11-22T01:02:00.000-08:00

morning peeps. i shd slp right? since im plannin to go all out tmr..?
im also gonna swim :)
i lyk swimming. gr8 :)
okay.
bye.

2010-11-21T23:49:00.000-08:00

tell me whr do i run...
i wanna run. cnt w8 to run.
thr was nowhr.
im gna run tmr. lyk literally..
runnin w onli 1 person allowed. u wanna run with me in spirit..also cn..
im gna run and run and runnnn. so unlyk me..
nvm gd exercise..i hav potential to run y'know.
hp it helps. i'll try nt to stop..i'll juz kip runnin..
joanna is gonna run. wowwww.
-.-

2010-11-21T11:01:00.000-08:00

i dislike home

2010-11-20T23:44:00.000-08:00

i wish i still appear in ur mind evry nw and then.
i wish im th one u think of..dun hav to be th first on to appear in ur mind..but at least rmb me?

im a little scared..

2010-11-19T16:46:00.000-08:00

i nvr knew it still means so much to me till i cried..

2010-11-17T16:31:00.000-08:00

u dunno how heavy it felt.
i didn noe i wld have to overcome th hurt again. lol.
mayb i shd nvr let any1 into my life too much eh.
and noone shd mean anythin to me.
yeah i'll try tht.
nobody lyks th feelin of hurt.
k.honestly it isn ur fault.....
im tryin to get u out of my world.
so u shd gt lost too. to help me.

2010-11-14T23:59:00.000-08:00

You're more than a story,
more than words on a page of history,
You're everything to me
:)

2010-11-14T23:50:00.000-08:00

th more secured u are,
the easier it is to let it go.
it won't affect u much.

2010-11-13T21:10:00.000-08:00

LOL. i found out i wasn th onli one who cldn slp laz nite!
gt a few oths also :O
sleep well tonight,evryone ;D

i'm not ready.
i kinda backed out.

2010-11-11T20:28:00.000-08:00

liar.

2010-11-10T23:45:00.000-08:00

hahah.
i got a feelin u lyk some oth gal.
or are u juz despo??
either way idc.

2010-11-10T23:11:00.000-08:00

why muz it be at 2pm...
i wish they'd call me..
so i cld talk to them directly.i hav some qns to ask...
i appreciate it,but,she didn hav to ask for me..
haiiii...
but,its ok :)
hold it with a loose hand,thts right :)

2010-11-09T18:48:00.000-08:00

2010-11-08T22:09:00.000-08:00

wth.
i rather wash dishes or run or read a book
or go for tuition
than to go for that.
stupid,such a waste of time.
do.u.know.how.much.i.dread.it.
im planning to do th least to get th most outta it. caz i rly dislike it.
i have no passion for it at all.
now i understand th pain.... i join in with those who curse and swear at it man.
yes,make more stupid songs for it. i'll join in.
i hate it. and for tht,im gonna be th most irresponsible person. wad can u do abt it.

2010-11-08T18:37:00.000-08:00

fear came bcaz of rejection.

2010-11-06T23:22:00.000-07:00

it feels lyk im playin a game.
its not fun,its tiring at times.
lets stop

i hav a plan.

2010-11-05T23:59:00.001-07:00

i guess it won't matter anymore

2010-11-05T23:59:00.000-07:00

LOL idk why i said tht..
i feel lyk i cant be th one who's thr for u anymore.
i dunno stuff alr. lol. i feel lyk i dunno..
errmm..idk wad to say.hahaaaaa..so weird! O:
i wasn't thr whn u needed som1 i guess...instead,i was kinda enjoyin myself..
i wish i was thr fr u..
nvm.
hold things with a loose hand :)

2010-11-05T22:49:00.000-07:00

if it's meant to be, it will be.
honestly,i don't have what it takes.

2010-11-04T23:42:00.000-07:00

the place whr rubbish gets thrown into eventually in spore isn't disgusting at all.
it doesn't stink too :D
it's a pleasant place. spore has such smart ideas ^^

caz whn i don't care, i rly don't care.
thr's no reason why i would. and if i dislike it, i really do not like it..
not tht i hate it..
when i've let go, im really alrite. and i've really let go..
i'm not unsure.
i am serious.

2010-10-29T22:57:00.000-07:00

i don't want it to matter

2010-10-28T14:23:00.000-07:00

i'm a strong gal. i didn't cry. (:

i dunno how i feel abt tht.
Daddy God, lyk, so soon??
im not ready.
i dun want it to go back caz im scared it's not gonna be as perfect anymore.
things change y'know..
mayb if it happened a few months back,it might have been a better timing??
i should be happy..

2010-10-27T21:41:00.000-07:00

Just end it there,like that.
it's a happy ending,keep it as fond memories.
it's alright not to continue,because it had a good ending.
doesn't matter if it isn't true anymore,
it was once true.

2010-10-26T18:31:00.000-07:00

bleh to extended curriculum...chi is inside too.
go thr waste tym. i dun think lijing will be teachin anythin...idk wad we're gonna do..
but nvm. its onli for a week :)
okay.....thr was a while aft eoy when i didn feel tht much for dramas.
but now, im back to th drama state. i was actually planning to announce to everyone that im not watchin any drama :D hahaha. but...i can't anymore.
i guess it isn't vry gd to lyk dramas. caz it'll cause u to stay up till 5+ am juz to watch it. not good..
doesn exactly feel very fruitful too...lols.
alright, this is a little late, but hope ur results have been blessed :)
anyw, there's still one more year to go :D jys everyone.

2010-10-20T14:45:00.000-07:00

thank You for th little things :)

2010-10-19T16:51:00.000-07:00

i feel loved :) ♥
thank You Jesus :)
but sometimes, i just wanna run away.lyk,juz run away.
i dun evn wanna see th gd, juz wanna run.
leave and run.tht's it.
and sometimes i daren't hope caz im scared i'll be disappointed.its lyk tht eh??
kay, but i cant run. i'll have to face it,whether i lyk it or not..
so...help me DaddyGod :)
You noe, sometimes its so empty and yet so heavy. i dislike it.
i dislike tht feelin whn i heard that too. and i cant do anythin abt that.
i have to face it.just help me.

when u don't love it, it doesn't matter at all. it means nothing and u wouldn't care about it

2010-10-15T23:59:00.000-07:00

i am Yours, and Yours alone

2010-10-14T21:04:00.000-07:00

2010-10-05T21:50:00.000-07:00

in every season,
i know You love me.

2010-09-25T20:47:00.000-07:00

k so...i was actually not planning to bring any1 into my 'plan'
totally have no intention of bringin any1 into it.
ehhh......
but...somehow,how com some ppl are....goin to be in it?? noooo....
oh well.....i won't know who i'll miss eventually,aft many yrs..
but still...nope,dun wan anyone to be in it.
and grace for it to work out,pls..
yup. im thinkin quite far ahead.but not exactly too far. so pls help me.
U noe wad i rly want...

& i think thr's someone else goin thru smth abt th same as me!!
lyk abt th same journey,but i dun think its exactly th same.
but i think.....its quite cool!! erm, i noe inside my heart can alr. lol..mayb nxt tym.....then
idk! hahaha.
but...i think thr's smth installed. which makes me excited :D
exciting! XD
quite cool..how stuff is...showin hints. ahh..i dunno. HAHA. but im excited.
i wun try. i dunno how anyw ... it'll happen at th right tym :)

even the desert can be beautiful

2010-09-24T19:34:00.000-07:00

im rly glad God is nt lyk normal human.
caz honestly i did tell som1 abt my "fear"
but its not vry understandable for her. she doesn understand why i hav this fear.
but i think i found som1 else goin thru abt th same fear as me..
so its not onli me k..
it means alot,really...
and th fear haunts me evry now and then. and it is now happening.
but unlyk my fren, God understands, and He knew how to talk to me...
my fren encouraged me too :) but...its juz...not it. lyk, it means ALOT to me.almost 90% my life.
she told me gd stuff too :)
but God is so gentle :) and come to think of it, He prepared me...
and evn so, it was aft i chose to giv it to Him,all of me,all of this, tht he let th fear happen...
i hav chosen to giv it to Him alr...i shdn b worrying...
evn whn i worry, He speaks to me so gently. tellin me stuff tht im now certain normal humans wun be able to say to me...caz they dunno how much it means and wad my mind is goin thru,so they cnt rly find th right words to say,caz i cant evn find th right words to describe my fear.
so onli God can fully get thru me...
keep getting to me alrite, i need You to keep assuring me and encouraging me.
i noe U've given me grace to face it. and overcome it.
im strong,im more than a conqueror. thank You DaddyGod.
just keep helpin me...i really cant..
keep reminding me of Your luv alrite.

2010-09-24T19:00:00.000-07:00

yo :)
my fear has come..
nope,not eoys..or orals..
juz some fear i've been holdin for quite some tym alr.
and finally it happened......
i thot it was juz.....that..
then i found out oth stuff....even worse..
i was literally scared ):
i dislike it.alot.so much,i feel lyk i wanna run to somewhr else.
guess i was prepared for it anw...
but i cnnt stop anythin.i've been tryin to by...doin nth??by worrying.which doesn help.
aishhhh. D:

but recently,i came up with a 'plan' randomly.i didn really plan it
it's gd i guess?? caz i found my motivation to persevere in stuff.
i dun think im thinkin too far...
i rly rly hope my plan happens.. God,pls let it happen. let Ur grace bless my plan..
bcaz of my plan, whatever happens now doesn matter as much alr. which is gd :)
and im willing to giv up whoever,wadeva for th plan.
juz let my plan work..if not exactly, also can th outline of th plan happens...pls.
i finally hav a gr8r hope lorr. my plan :D
whatever i do frm now onwards,shall be for my plan..doesn sound right. i shd b doin them for God...hmmm. okay,help me to do them for God as well.

phy spa!
how was it?? i din rly noe how to set up th experiment :X
was sweating...and prayin,mouthing words...caz im super scared of spa.
yahhh..but thank God i did it right^^
should be right.
i think chem is scarier??
but nvm, do it for God, and for my plan..!!
jiayou evryone for chem spa! :D

2010-09-17T23:09:00.000-07:00

hello :D
thank You God,for makin things better and tellin me U luv me (:
i wanna thank evryone who cared abt me.
thx alot ppl! :D im touched by evry single one of u..lyk individually differently touched :)
thanks.
thanks for th letters,notes,msgs,calls,talks,jelly(cheryl),evrythin.
and of caz,thanks for all ur prayers :)
evn if u silently prayed in ur heart for me,thanks :)
im lyk,much much better now.
feels lyk a lot has happened,but its all juz within a wk.
but really thanks everyone...
evn those who nvr said anythin directly or whatever.but somehow i noe u cared (:
its diff whn u were thr whn i was so low..even juz a simple 'are u ok' means smth.
its juz diff...lyk...different.
nt juz ppl who are with u onli whn ur up.
i feel th difference now. haha :)
yupp, so thanks everyone who bothered. now gt special place in my heart..HAHAH.
but its true.lyk,more special now. hahaha.
:)

ohh,and i did smth embarrassing tdy . bhaahahaaaaaa.
:$:$:$:$:$:$:$:$:$:$
hope evryone and myself forgets.
:$

2010-09-15T20:15:00.000-07:00

Dear God,
i dun wanna hurt anymre.
i dun wanna fear.
show Urself much more real to me .
show me all i nid is You..
tY

2010-09-10T17:06:00.000-07:00

i noe wad to do : trust God :)
HAHA, lyk, duh rite?
but i juz got it.
i noe its wad we all noe we're supposed to do...but sometimes it doesn hit us,ya'know?
and it hit me juz now (:

Dear God,
pls dun let th spark of hope extinguish.
hope gets me goin agn :)
tY for hope :)

it onli tks a spark to gt th fire goin

2010-09-09T23:19:00.000-07:00

i felt bad
i think it mattered to u too,
u sounded alrite tho.
but i noe u were nt feelin alrite...
im sry,
but i'll juz say tht,evn if i try,i fail,caz im a human.
and i cnt b thr for u all th tym..
but Jesus is ur very true friend.
u cn talk to Him lyk a friend..and th best thin is tht,He is so close,He is right beside u..
so cls to u. u dun hav to wait to talk to Him..
unlike me or any1 else whn u hav to wait, and we hav to leave..

2010-09-09T23:12:00.000-07:00

one day..

we were talkin,happily.
somehow talked until that
and they shared theirs.
bt i had nth to say,i didn wanna share,
caz mine so sad case-.-
i juz listened to them, and silently wished in my heart.
they asked me abt it,
i juz shook my head and said " i dun lyk"
its vry sad..really.
i had nth to say,caz tht cn bring me to tears.
but lyk ya...i think im trained to nt cry so easily alr.
so i was lookin just fine....

one word: sux.

2010-09-09T22:58:00.000-07:00

shizzz.
i wanna gt lost alr.
i wan to gt out.
shit.
muz i continue seeing stuff happen rite in front of me??
how am i goin to tk it man. omg.
i cnnt tk it ):
no way man.
such crap D:
how do i escape now?
thr's lyk damn alot of stuff.i cnt tk.
u noe?
shit luh.
super D:

i still dunno wad to do.
just let me run away and i'll be better.
provide a road for me to escape unseen.
it's dangerously painful if i stay.
caz i tell u smth,
im gna b worse if all these kip happening.

2010-09-08T23:59:00.000-07:00

i dislike it enough tht im thinkin of quitting.srsly.
u wun noe why and i dunno how to say it out.caz,i rly dislike it tht i dunno how to say.
this sux ):
i dun wanna mk anoth wrong decision or whatever agn.
tell me wad i shd do..cn i juz leave and run? wad if my decision affects my oth stuff.
mygosh..
i evn noe how to bac my decision up..im crafty enough to think of stuff..XD
i was smiling,but i h8ed evry moment of it. tht sux ttm.
it was torture to see evry moment of it.shit this.
it's damn tiring.
wad if one day i cnt tk evrythin in this journey,and i chose to giv up,if i bcom ttly gonecase,a ttly new person mayb
whn tht day comes,dun judge me.caz u dunno anythin at all.u noe nth. nth of my journey.

teach me dear Lord to live all of my life through Your eyes

2010-09-04T23:25:00.000-07:00

i juz wanna noe,do i still mean smth to u?
am i still impt?
okay,mayb i dun rly wanna noe th ans...

2010-09-04T22:54:00.000-07:00

th thot mks me think, God, Ur rly cool :D haha th way You do things and plan ahead,evrythin.
evn tho i havn experienced it,but,i still think You're rly cool :D

and im glad tht didn affect me. nt gonna hurt caz of such a small minor thin tht shd evn hurt. haha

LOL,not again...this tym,wad isit? lol
same thin? combined situation? l.o.l
HAHA.
i dun want th same ending though..
and if ur goin,i definitely dun wanna miss u.i dun wanna miss anythin.
i wanted to be som1 diff to u,nt juz wad ur past was lyk..i wanted to show u tht its nt gonna always be liddat..
well....

my God and King until the end

2010-09-03T23:19:00.000-07:00

seriously ah...
wad th...
???
lyk,what?! O:
actually i dun even care..
felt lyk tellin u tht too.
it doesn hav anythin to do with me man.
felt lyk tellin u off.felt lyk, not even caring!
LOL. all th better if u get lost :O
mean :\
sighhh.
but i didn. even tho i rthr tell u "4gt it,i dun even care,u get out of thr even better"
lyk,what wld it matter to me-.- nothin.
but i didn..
i shd luv ppl lyk u.
God's luv will help me to luv u.
it hurt a little,it spoiled my heart k..made a dent.blehhh ):
but i still luv u in Jesus' name!

2010-09-01T23:06:00.000-07:00

He believes in me :)

2010-09-01T21:50:00.000-07:00

! hong lao shi said i put on weight!!! >.<

k, i thot i realised tht
what i've been missing, never existed in the first place
then i realised again, that, it did existed, but it was just fragments of those times.
they were just moments that meant alot, that brought me much joy.
and, i came to realise that, it's the moments that matter.
it isn't th days or months or yrs tht u rmb. it's th short moments, mayb juz a funny thin or a sweet moment, tht u'll rmb. u wun rmb wad happened th entire day,much less a month or a year.
they were just small fragments that remain in my heart
someone said,
treasure every moment,
caz they pass us by, too fast sometimes.
we wun rewind bac to th moments or days,we'll juz kip movin on.
each moment is special,they onli happen once.
and its also alrite to let go of th moments tht were once thr,they will nvr come bac..
we can just store them as pictures in our hearts.
its lyk bein in a bus tht juz kips on movin,and th trees outside are th moments in life, ur inside th bus moving.evn th bad moments will soon be past and over. so it doesn matter (:

i've seen you in my memories

2010-08-27T23:20:00.000-07:00

i choose to look,
to You my Lord

2010-08-27T21:13:00.000-07:00

lol. this must be a joke
:\

2010-08-26T23:23:00.000-07:00

refresh.

when i heard th ans,my heart sank. i cld feel it. mayb it beat faster..or it rly dropped a millimeter.
but i was smilin,and wad came out of my mouth was opp frm what i felt. so fake man. so fake ):
caz i decided, i cldn follow what i felt or what i think i shd do anymore..i just did what i did :\
whn u asked if i mind,i suggest u dun trust what i say...dun trust what i think or feel also...none is right..aiya dunno la.but actually i mind.
;
3 different things:
1) hated it D:
2) hate (anoth) it ):
3) hated th silence btwn us.wad happened O:
;
God guards everythin else for me,
so why am i still guarding them when obviously im failing?
and i can't even guard my heart at all....total failure at tht.
;
i realise, every1 has diff seasons in their own lives.
i might go thru one, while anoth goes thru anoth season..
diff pts in our lives..... and i sorta knew and accepted this new season in my life...but i need a revival,caz im losin sight tht this is what God has planned for me, a journey tht has new experiences,smth tht He says will mk me SMILE, and i sorta agreed to this new season too......so...
..im still in th midst of it.

sidetrack of my life,
im goin to talk abt sayyian. haha. (:
her quite blessed life :)
idk wad seasons has she went thru..lyk none,caz to me, it seems quite nice :)
haha.
she studies,she does well.
she go where, also got nice ppl arnd her.
she wants china buddy, she gets it. somemore she ownself say her china buddy soooo nice and friendly.mayb th best among all th oth china gals? she gets an awesome china buddy. so awesome tht i think jm rly rly rly wants her haha.almost in luv or smth. hahaha.stare at her for a LONG tym hahahaha.
her family is peaceful and happy and nice.
and i think sayyian's a truly nice gal :)
mayb she's been hurt by stuff b4...but overall, i think she's blessed ever since i knew her.haha.
but im happy for her nice peaceful life (: almost no troubles,except studies-which she doesn nid to worry abt,and small trivial matters evry1 has to think abt, e.g. hmwk and wad to wear.

k, let me end my long post (:

2010-08-24T22:58:00.000-07:00

im goin nuts!
i can't think right, and idk wad im doin or thinking.
my mind's goin crazy.
i can't handle my mind. i dunno wads happening to my brain either.
O:
it feels lyk its gonna burst with all th thoughts.
im doin th opposite of what my brain thinks or how i feel,
dunno wad i shd follow caz none is workin in a right state.
its all so fake and i dunno what's real.
i dun wanna think anymre.

Abba, You're greater than my brain, thoughts and feelings.
all these dun come frm You.
pls do smth abt my brain and heart.
thank You.

2010-08-23T23:33:00.000-07:00

sry man, person, ppl...whoever.
i dunno what im doin also.

2010-08-23T21:41:00.000-07:00

i want to be free

2010-08-22T20:12:00.000-07:00

i don't wanna miss a thin.

2010-08-22T19:15:00.000-07:00

^^yay! talked to a yog guy frm australia who plays hockey!! :D :O
cooooool.
teeeheeeee (:
and,sayyian is goin to hav a china buddy OMG.
SAYYIAN :O good for u!! :D
so cool man..hahahaha. im goin to tag along sayyian whn her china buddy comes (: HEHHEHHHEHH.
so lucky, can go china with her buddy. can make friends with her.
they're gonna be tgt for so many days. grats, sayyian :) ur blessed eh :)
and its alrite for those who didn get it. HAHA. i wasn't evn chosen for th choice. LOL

God is greater than any mistake :)

2010-08-21T23:59:00.000-07:00

look at things differently,
look at them and see what God sees (:

someone asked me smth random. haha.
but it made me realise something.
it made me realise,i still miss it and i loved it alot.
i may hav forgotten wad happened caz tym made me forget,
but i know i loved it alot.
i may not cry whenever i think abt it, i may not even think about it as often anymore,
but,somehow,th heart sure knows how to keep the feelings so in tact.The knowing that i loved it,my heart knows.
it's past,it's over and gone. but i rmb i was rly happy. i loved it so much.
nth could match up to it; maybe almost as good, but, nothin was as good or better.
sometimes it makes me feel like im still stuck there.
i know it's over alr. i've gotten over it too.i think i've moved on
but im still there,at that time,caz i would rather go back there.
i wouldn't mind staying there..

Daddy God, i still miss it, i still miss it alot.

2010-08-19T22:46:00.000-07:00

(: 2day was a nice day..
xw said, " one of th best days we hav" i think so too :)
thank You, God :D

don't waste a good crisis.
it's an oppotrunity to see how big God is, and to see Him at work :)

2010-08-18T22:09:00.000-07:00

we each have our own lives,different from one anoth.
like a canvas with different paintings.
every painting is beautiful (:
it's time to let God paint this canvas for me and through me.
time to see my beautiful canvas being painted (:
God, take it all, edit the painting..restore it,make it beautiful again...
i don't want to lose myself any further.

2010-08-18T21:40:00.000-07:00

i pulled through to see how far i could go.
i can go far, but i'm losing..
it's not supposed to be like that, Daddy God..

maybe we're trying, trying too hard

2010-08-15T19:59:00.000-07:00

Daddy God,
caz You've given me Your life, Your strength,
i will be able to go through everything.

2010-08-13T21:38:00.000-07:00

pls do read :)

Angelic Bodyguards

Psalm 91, which speaks of God’s divine protection, takes on new meaning
when angels come to the rescue. Such was the case for Mike Disanza of the New
York City Police Department, whose angelic encounter is highlighted in Peggy
Joyce Ruth’s latest book, Psalm 91

Over my system came the message: 72nd Street and Broadway, Manhattan! I
knew the meaning of the code: Cop in trouble and needs assistance. I rushed to
the subway and there was a crowd of people around the cop who refused to let him
get his prisoner. I walked directly over and cuffed the prisoner, which made the
crowd go wild.
One man shouted: “Here comes the train! Let’s throw the cop in
the subway!” The crowd converted into a mob. I felt myself moving toward the
subway track, being pushed by this angry crowd who was intending to hurl me onto
the tracks in front of the speeding train. I could hear the sound and see the
lights of the oncoming train in the tunnel.
Being a new Christian, I
cried out the best prayer I knew: “Jesus help!” Suddenly, these two big guys in
the crowd started pushing the mob out of our way. They parted the crowd, got
over to me and said, “Follow us!” I grabbed the prisoner and followed them as
they made a path for us—and felt the other cop right on my heels hanging onto my
jacket. The two men ushered us back to the patrol car and I loaded the prisoner
in the back seat. He was still screaming his mouth off about how he hated cops.
I turned around to thank the two strangers, but was surprised that neither of
them was there. Oh, well, I thought, and muttered my thanks to them
anyway.
I jumped in and the other cop got in next to the driver. He thanked
me gratefully for my help. I deflected the compliment and said, “Thank God for
those two big guys pushing the crowd apart, telling us to follow them and moving
us to the car!”
“I didn’t hear nothing. I didn’t see nothing,” he said. “And
I never heard anyone tell us to follow them.”
Puzzled, I asked, “Eddie,
how could you not see the men? You were right behind us!”
When I turned
around, I suddenly saw a 3-D message through the glass: Angels are
ministering spirits to help those who will believe. It was at that moment I
realized what had happened and said to myself, My gosh, those guys were
angels!
God really does give His angels charge concerning us (see Ps. 91:11).

-Tuesday, 01 June 2010 12:00 AM EDT Peggy Joyce Ruth, Psalm 91 Charisma

God is our very present help (:
He is our protection in everythin :D
there's nth to fear.

2010-08-11T21:44:00.000-07:00

don't leave just like that...
wait till i don't care.
it would be less mean that way.

2010-08-11T21:12:00.000-07:00

hello.
got this thingy at my right eye there..
mmm....
its gettin better :)
with a thingy producing..

perhaps im thinkin too much.
i might let th childish side get into me this time
so that u can see...

2010-08-09T20:47:00.000-07:00

Blessed birthday Singapore :D
today and tmr holiday!!!!! :D finally got some holiday.. :)

Because i know i'm waiting for something beautiful (:

2010-08-08T22:52:00.000-07:00

everyday it seems like i really made a super wrong decision ):
soso horrible.
so horrible. super. argh.
do u know how it feels to want to rewind time so badly?
so that i can remake my decision. i dunno how many times im gonna say i made th wrong decision,but i made such a wrong decision and i hate it ttm. D:
bcaz of tht, im losing out so much.
seems like i made one of th worst decisions man.
any other would be better.
howwwww to change things.
so much time wasted,
so many opportunities im missing out on.
in all ways i look at it,
i made th worse decision i could have made.
and i can do nothin abt it..
but well, God never disappoints.. :)
so there's always hope, with God :D
i cannot do anythin,but God will do smth.
God restores whatever time tht is wasted, i dunno how He does that,but He will..
He will give me back th opportunities too....
so,in conclusion,
there's still hope (:
even though it seems, quite hopeless uh...

2010-08-07T23:22:00.000-07:00

lets see what i can rmb..

1)mdm toh is nice, she gave us sweets :D hahaha. caz we're so tired..
i got a lollipop ^^
2)went to see xiaoxiaobing with pebble :) haha not too many ppl thr.
3)ms thio treated us to pizza hut for lunch on fri aft exco meeting :D
and..she didn scold me :) heheeee.
4) i dun wanna take photo on wed
5) MY RIGHT EYE IS ABIT SWOLLEN!
a little painful,and i dunno why its swollen.. haha.
well,get well soon to my right eye! :)

tht's about all i can rmb :)

2010-08-05T20:08:00.000-07:00

i wouldn't mind losing any of u now.
it no longer matters.

2010-08-05T19:45:00.000-07:00

don't fall,
because you'll fall deep

i dunno why im hurt.
it hurt till i had a stomach ache.
it hurt but i couldn cry.
it didn matter.
so why would it hurt?
how is it possible to lead someone on,
and then abandon them suddenly.
it's mean.

lols,
funny.
now it's me.
first its u.
hmmm,how many parties are involved this time?
a few...shd i add an 'onli' behind a few?
im sry,i couldn continue hearing. it hurt, alot.
and i know that u know,there's nth to hide. i know ur happy. every normal person would.
and trust me,
i cannot continue seeing it. caz i haven't yet learned the full art of pretending nothing's happening,and continue smiling and laughing.

i told myself i never cared about such things,
i never fell into anythin.
i never did, or at least i told myself never to.
i don't see how i can get hurt.
but it hurts deep.

2010-08-03T22:37:00.000-07:00

nothin much.
but it feels like today was a happy day ^^
small happy stuff happened :D in between the other not happy stuff.
feels like today was a gd day.
hahaha.i have no idea why :)
caz actually got bad sad stuff.lol.
but i feel kinda happy! :)
thank God :D

2010-08-01T22:52:00.000-07:00

hi all :D
erm, just wanna say that,
about anythin in ur life,
the best thin to do is to talk to God about it :D
freely talk about ur feelings to Him.
He's God,like, He'll do somethin abt it man!! :D
haha.
yupp,and He's a good God :)

i just saw smth changed,literally... :D
hahah. it's quite shocking. it wasn't what i expected it to be.
but thank God ^^
i was actually quite afraid.....

btw,

it kinda hurt...lol.

2010-07-30T23:59:00.000-07:00

Jesus, You're the only One....

i cover my ears,so i don't hear anything that would hurt.
but even when i couldn't hear anythin,why did it still hurt?

for protection,
for everything.
for understanding
for helping
for saving
for refuge,
for shelter,
Jesus,You're the only One.

shout,scream,bang,boom,
tears.
how much more can i take?

D:

it's not just a game.
unless life itself is a game.

2010-07-29T23:02:00.000-07:00

u really didn,u really never ...

2010-07-28T22:19:00.000-07:00

person,
i've decided on my own,
tht im not goin to bother about u.
whether anot u call or message me.
it wouldn't matter.
u did las tym,so often. mayb im juz used to it. but i'll soon get used to th current stuff too.
the end.

get get out of my mind,
everythin that i dun wanna be up there,occupying my memory space,
my brain cells,and those that managed to creep into my heart space as well.
i dun wanna waste space.
must get rid of th garbage :O

okayyyyy.

btw, ystd was a gd day (:
:D

2010-07-26T16:18:00.000-07:00

who said time will heal?

2010-07-22T19:22:00.000-07:00

i dun hav to try to be th most perfect person.
i dun hav to be th one who goes all out and pretends im fine.
i dun hav to hide whatever im goin thru or my sad feelings.
caz it's th imperfections tht mk things better.
i realised.
somtyms ppl wanna come in and genuinely help us.
and by letting them be of help, it makes them feel helpful and useful.
i dun always have to be the helpful and useful one all th tym,lyk i hav nothin,no prob.
it's alrite to trust ppl... :)
im startin to learn how to trust ppl... ^^

the more u like someone,
the more u try to be better for that person.
but that's not necessary :)
imperfections aren't all that bad.

2010-07-21T23:13:00.000-07:00

k 2day wasn bad :)
gd stuff happn :D
small, but significant! ^^

i tried to cover my ears,
but i could still hear it.
caz it wasn't coming from the outside,

2010-07-19T22:24:00.000-07:00

thnk u.
:)
u dunno,
but it made me feel better,so much better.
u dunno, but i was almost gonna cry..but,anw, i felt better aft tht.
thnk u :)

2010-07-16T22:02:00.000-07:00

if we cross paths again, why don't u say hi?

mayb i dun want it..
let's just see how this goes.
anoth game to play along..

i think life is lyk obs.
haha.tough,but it can be enjoyable, it can also be tortuous..
but we grow, and gain experience. Experience we dun face at home. we also meet many ppl thruout this life camp. we find ppl we lyk bein wif, we find all sorts of ppl.
home is heaven.
eventually, we'll go heaven, we'll go home :D
and some ppl might miss life camp,
but some will b happy to get back home.
i think i wanna go home sometimes,
lyk quit th camp..haha.
but not so easy to quit lorr. caz not tym yet. still gt many more ppl to meet, many more experiences to experience,many more ppl to help, and many more ppl i find to luv.
so,not tym to quit yet...
but at this junction,now,
i wish to go home. haha.

2010-07-15T23:13:00.000-07:00

recently,
i almost made a decision agn, hoping to kinda correct th wrong decision i made..
but then,if i made tht decision, i was worried it might end up anoth wrong decision made..
i prayed abt it, and in th end, juz felt lyk, God encouraged me :)
and i juz felt tht i shdn mk tht decision anymre..
but whn i was reasoning it wif my feelings n mind, th new decision seemed gd, it might b abit weird, but, it wld b better,at least.
anyw, i didn go on wif tht decision caz aft praying, i felt tht God has things installed for me,things i dunno of..and if i mk tht decision, my limited brain obviously doesn noe hw things would actually turn out.hahaha.
and u noe wad?
things aren't goin th high,gd way...
in fact,it seems lyk things r goin against me.
haha but nvm luh, caz liddat i also cn go to DaddyGod for refuge.
i can,share my heart wif Him more,caz hahaha, sad wad..so,i actually tok more abt my real feelings to Him,lyk a friend.hahaha. im opening up to Him..LOL.i didn use to share my heart with God, i onli prayed abt brief things,never told Him what i really really felt.lols.
Of caz He knows evn b4 i tell Him abt it. but its cool anws, to tell Him,lyk a diary,and th bestest friend :D
heh, caz i know He has plans installed for me.. so no worries la...
haha (:
but ah, i still regret mkin those decisions. i still wonder "wad if.."
ok,anw im rly glad im nt tht affected, as in of caz i still feel sad,regretful,hurt,etc.
but lyk,thru this,it didn make me distant frm God. it helped me know God more,personally,as my bestfriend,my everythin :D
im gettin stronger! :)
still gt many flaws,esp th insecurity part,but im growing :)
it's a journey haha XD
kayyyy, idk why i decided to post.
its lyk 11plus, and i haven evn touched my sch bag..haha.
hmwk due tmr. oh and i nidda do th physics prac,supposed to hand in today.hahah.
stupid graph,dunno how to draw siah..

okAys,i shall stop here :)
bye peeps

2010-07-06T21:36:00.000-07:00

i think it's true tht a few yrs dwn th road,
things tht matter to us nw wouldn matter anymre.
things tht once mattered so much wld becom nth but memories..
i'll w8 for tht day to come..

2010-07-05T14:13:00.000-07:00

it's youth day :D
holiday :D
on fri, th real thin didn go according to wad jm and i practiced..
so,we didn hav to prac actually. haha.
ok,
u noe i wish i cn rewind tym.
i rly rly wanna rewind tym.
it feels lyk i made th wrong decision.. i wan to remake th decision!!
then i wldn hav to b so sad nw..
bt if i were to chnge things now, wad if it doesn make me happier??
wldn it b anoth wrong decision i mk??
dis is so not nice.
i dun lyk this. ...
im supposed to treat it lyk a game,dun tk it so srsly.
bt i dun lyk th game,
caz it makes me sad.
dunno wad to do also...
i really feel lyk i made a wrong decision...
and it matters caz im goin thru th consequence now.
and i cnt tk it lyk it's juz a game...caz it is obviously nt juz a game...

rewind time for me.

2010-07-01T20:31:00.000-07:00

it's alrite.
:)
juz ignore th below. tht's nth much.
:)

wasted tym ):
but, s'ok! :D

2010-07-01T17:37:00.000-07:00

mayb im tkin it too srsly man..
bt u noe wad it feels lyk anot.
lyk my 1st tym, bt evrytin is almost on my own.
den it feels lyk im th onli one takin it srsly.
its tmr man.
idk hw dis small simple devotion thin cn cause such effects.
wad is dis.
stuff happened.
frenship broken..
it's TMR.
i had to go find ppl myself, do stuff myself.
i think dis is bad. real bad.
caz it's so sad.
i gt to mit mean ppl,lyk,actually i didn think dey wre mean.
h8 it. made me feel so sad.
i dun lyk realisin ppl r mean.
OKAY.
u've no idea wad it has been.
jus, Daddy God, tmr go smoothly pls.
thank You..
Daddy God, help me.
i hope i cn 4gt stuff tht happened. n juz do it.
las min lyk, NOW hav to find anoth person sing wif me.
caz made th wrong decision in th 1st place...
decisions r impt..
ok, dis is horrible.

2010-06-28T19:27:00.000-07:00

hello :)
i hav stuff to post abt, many stuff tht happened.
outings,events,etc. and church camp.
but oh well, i dun hav th tym.
today's th 1st day of sch.
it seems lyk, i've been goin to sch for wks alr.
is tht a gd thin?? :\
hmm,it isn tht bad tho..
OK.
so, im supposed to lead devotion dis fri..
miss thio wanted me to lead devotion dis fri..
i had to find someone to sing wif me.
i asked jiamin first caz she wanted to b in devotion.
but she doesn wan, thank gdness annabel is willing..
HONESTLY,
i had no idea wad to do. las nite i think i had miss call frm miss thio.
then aft tht sandra told me im supposed to lead devotion this fri.
i was lyk, huh???
then,best thin la. noone come help me can.
no tr tell me wad to do.
no senior.
nobody guide me lei. and its my 1st tym wor.
sandra was nice, she told me th details. and abt roughly wad to do..
but she's quite new too...
BUT, she helped :)
yesh, she helped. caz i seriously had no clue abt wad im supposed to do. i was thinkin
mayb juz go and sing th songs,until i asked sandra,then she told me,muz go prepare myself.
muz prepare ppt slides too...
I DUNNO HOW TO DO PPT SLIDES nicely...
then,i think im goin to do them by myself u noe........
lyk,doin evrythin on my own.
annabel's BUSY.
im busy too....i hav JUNE HOL hmwk to chiong(actually,to copy)
n i hav th same tests th sec3s r gonna hav.
plus,im nt smart,i was too tired to pay attention in cls,and i didn hav tym to study.
but actually, tests dun bother me. i actually dun rly care if i do badly hahaha.
im busyyyyyy.i dun evn hav th tym to watch my drama!!!
yes, im wastin tym blogging...HAHA.
but aft tht im gonna rush my orca,and oth hmwk..
nvm, i can do this. juz me and Daddy God (:

anyw,recently,
i've decided,since im goin thru stuff.
and God is th gentlest nicest kindest person ever, He didn't let me go thru stuff to see me cry or suffer.. hard to understand,yea.
But all i know is tht, He is good :)
so, im juz gonna treat it lyk a game.
im juz goin thru a game. nth much.
it may hurt, but. ITS JUST A GAME. and it's a game i play with God,
in th process, we grow closer to each oth..
caz God didn giv me probs to see me suffer. im almost certain abt tht :)
OK.
good game im playin :)

im goin to do proper stuff now.bye(: